13/April/2024

13/April/2024

The Next Three :- 

1- Finish the Bed task in it's entirety and clean this room to my best capacity without changing the general format of my mother's room, then close this room and lock this room, for i don't want to come in this room without prior plans; like sleeping, playing music, etc. Because I have been relaxing a little too much by default in this room. 

2-Change into gym clothes and do a 100 skips atleast. then do some dumbelly dumbelly dumbell and play with it according. 

3- I took a bath

ohkay, so, I believe that I fudged up my plan again. Cause my hormone levels did not support my plan to clean the room at all. Like, I was depressed had alot of nihilism on my head the entire day. Though about quitting every single good thing in my life. Then also became absolutely blank. Which reminds me I need fruit Juice and alot of it. So I am going to buy some fruit juice next time we go to Chaprauli, which depends, is their packaged juice available in chaprauli? I don't know. ummmmmm........had a terrible day, ofcourse I have had worse, but it was one of the most terrible days of this month.

I have abdomen pain. And the only thing that I have accomplished today is to feed the dogs, look after the sick dog- Atlas/ Badhe Bhaiya (i can explain why this dog deserved the name - badhe bhaiyan). 

Kheir, point is I took care of the things that were my  external responsibilities. like 

1- made dog food -  10 rotis fir two dogs. 

2- I made my resume. 

3- collected some pintrest designs for my father's toolshed. 

4- applied to some jobs. 

5- took a really deep sleep nap, and woke up like a rose from the dead. 

6- Gave a mini speech to dad about emotions and how he should focus on his emotions and start to identify his emotions,  anything other than the sukoon emotion that he craves for. which i understand. 

7- didn't panic when i saw monkey in my room as I woke up. 

8- watched cartoon with devansh - shawn the sheep. 

9- reminder - remind dad to send that screenshot to the internet guy. 

10- isse pehle that i get scared and overthink, i need to take some actions in my life because people are such turn offs when it comes to amazing ideas. i mean, it can be bad idea for all i care about but it's a first step. people are such assholes for not even allowing  me to take my first step. 

11- the above 9 and 10 points are something that i am doing right now. 

12- now i will go and cook more rotis for doggos so that they can eat and sleep and i'll give them medicines.

13- hopefully, i will also clear mom's room. because if i complete that task then i can move on to the next in line task. 

14- i even remembered to take a bath in a really shitty mental depth of emptiness. 

15- i remembered to charge the electric heater for my body aches. 

Over all, a pretty good day if I look at it. I tried, that should count? right???